This blog has now taken on a different kind of a life of its own...
Well, I think I'm finally prepared to do this. This space is now going to become my confessional, almost, if that does not offend.
I start a journey as from today, that started a long time ago - but I'm now prepared to admit it to myself.
I'm prepared to be tested. I'm prepared to listen to objections like the following:
a)The Bible prohibits women in ministry in 1 Tim 2 and Cor 14
b) You're not suitable
c) You've got a young family
d) You're misguided
I'm hoping for affirmations:
a) The Bible does not prohibit women in ministry
b) You are suitable
c) How wonderful this will be for your young children
d) We're all called and this is how your calling will be played out
I've tried so hard to make the first set stick - but they aren't - I don't know why - I like to think God has something to do with it. Some of you will think that this is not the case, but that's okay. I rest.
The second set is so exciting, it's almost difficult to set down in black and white. It feels dangerous and delicious and wonderful to contemplate.
So we will see. I'm prepared to be vulnerable now - to invite you to witness what might be, by the world's standards, a journey to failure - the journey of a woman forging out a career for herself that wasn't to be.
From a Christian perspective - I actually have nothing to lose. Whether I work for the Church in an official capacity or not, I am still loved by God, I am still someone in a relationship with the triune God, living with Jesus as Lord. I have a very certain future in him. I will still work for the Church, his body, in what ever way I can because to this I am called and this is what I am made for and that can be in a multitude of roles. I trust God to show me the way.
So journey with me if you will.
Update 23rd - I need to rewrite this - 'iron sharpens iron' again. I'm asking the wrong questions. I sound like a politician - I'm skewing things - it ain't so darn black and white Rach - try again
a)People interpret the Bible to prohibit women in 'ordained' ministry. Ahhh!
b)Nicky Gumbel preached yesterday at our college - he spoke of a requirement in leaders of capability, integrity and relationship with God .....(?)
c) Can I balance ministry responsibilities, study and family?
Wow - maybe I have to even amend again after some point - these are revisions for today.
a)The fact that people interpret the Bible to prohibit women in 'ordained' ministry, is something I'm going to have to get over - I'm getting there but I'm not yet there.
b)Nicky Gumbel preached yesterday at our college - he spoke of a requirement in leaders of capability, integrity and relationship with God - Ordained ministry is a job and a Bishops Advisory Panel will decide on whether I tick those boxes and I so hope that I do. I'm scared of what it would feel like to get rejected!
c) I am hoping that God helps me to balance ministry responsibilities, study and family because this worries me.
Ordained Anglican. Thinking out loud about church.