So I am to discover what will work for me but not give up. We are being encouraged to ask God to help us to learn our daily office off by heart and to expect that this will take time. These prayers will help us to understand the rhythm or pattern of worship.
We were advised that sometimes what the psalmist says to God is not what we want to say to God – but we're to think someone else may be saying those things. We are encouraged to be creative in how we use the psalms and the same is true for the canticles. We should allow the Holy Spirit to be at work in the liturgy; acknowledging times of disconnection, allowing God to work in us even though we're not connected. We are to remember that the Lord has put it on our hearts; this desire to want to speak with Him. He got us here but wants to speak to us in His time! That we are also with others who are seeking him is powerful.
We were encouraged to say to God: this is my big intention: I hope to commune with you in this way. We were asked 'Are you asking God for something for yourself? What does God most want to give you at the moment? How does he want to lead you on in your Christian life. Ask him to help you to listen to Him and worship Him. In the the daily office, it is good to say to God 'I am available to you'.'
When we come to worship corporately in the church, it is important to be open. Not all styles of worship will suit and we need to decide not to be infuriated. We should instead receive as if we have been given a gift from those leading and God. Some gifts are more useful than others.
All of this was very helpful and inspiring.
I hope to learn to wait on him in the company of others in silence and grasp these opportunities when I can, I then might move into building some periods of silence into my daily life when I'm at home. This could prove more of a challenge but I feel excited about it.