I have decided to restrict readership of my other blog. I have been advised by my spiritual director to keep a journal, which I think is probably what a lot of Christians do anyway, but on paper. I use laptops so much I have pretty much forgotten how to even hold a pen so I am turning Angel utterances into my journal, which is what it was fast becoming anyway. It is about witnessing what God is doing in my life and the life of people around me through his Holy Spirit. I usually record the manifestations of his presence and I think that restricting readership will enable me to disclose more and wrestle with it with the help of my spiritual director.
Re vis.e re form covers my theological thinking, on the whole, with reflections on college life but my angel utterances blog explores the manifestations of the Holy Spirit and that sort of thing and stuff I just do not understand at all.
I think that I have a wee bit of baggage to sort out. I have exposed myself to too many articles knocking Todd Bentley and the Toronto Blessing and other outpourings and I do not know if I can trust readers to not think I've gone a bit loopy-loo at times and so I will just keep this stuff separate.
If however, you are someone with a really busy Spiritual life, if you know what I mean, and the blog has helped you in some way, then get in touch and I'll consider dialoguing with you. If you already follow angelutterances get in touch for a password.
If you do not know what I am talking about then it's not an issue so that's okay, ignore this post. You never read the stuff anyway.
It is important to me to record this stuff because I think that part of our witness to Christ is through teaching from the scriptures and our telling of a very experiential relationship with God. I know that my own journey with Jesus is spurred on with a real hunger when I see, at first hand, the manifestations of his presence occurring right in front of me in the lives of people walking moment by moment with the Spirit. I need to record my own experiences so that later they can be testified about when I am in ministry, if I discern they might help others to seek out a closer relationship with Jesus for themselves. I am also aware, though, that St Paul had much to say about the excesses of the Spiritual gifts in 1 Corinthians and so I also want to guard against spilling all in a very public way just in case I bring a sense of chaos rather than order to the table.
Be it all to his glory!
Just to leave you with some of the writings of Bernard of Clairveaux who expresses the Spirit's work in a way with which I can identify:
Rest is in Him alone. Man knows no peace in the world; but he has no disturbance when he is with God. And so the soul says with confidence, ‘Whom have I in heaven but Thee; and there is none upon earth that I desire in comparison of Thee. God is the strength of my heart, and my portion for ever. It is good for me to hold me fast by God, to put my trust in the Lord God’ (Ps. 73.25ff). Even by this way one would eventually come to God...
‘The Lord is good unto them that wait for Him’ (Lam. 3.25). What will He be then to those who gain His presence? But here is a paradox, that no one can seek the Lord who has not already found Him. It is Thy will, O God, to be found that Thou mayest be sought, to be sought that Thou mayest the more truly be found. But though Thou canst be sought and found, Thou canst not be forestalled...
No longer do we love God because of our necessity, but because we have tasted and seen how gracious the Lord is’...
‘My flesh and my heart faileth; but God is the strength of my heart and my portion for ever’ (Ps. 73.26). I would count him blessed and holy to whom such rapture has been vouchsafed in this mortal life, for even an instant to lose thyself, as if thou wert emptied and lost and swallowed up in God, is no human love; it is celestial.
just consider for a while what the future holds:
When the flesh is laid aside, she eats no more the bread of carefulness, but is allowed to drink deeply of the wine of love, as if after a repast. But the wine is not yet unmingled; even as the Bridegroom saith in another place, ‘I have drunk My wine with My milk’ (Cant. 5.1). For the soul mixes with the wine of God’s love the milk of natural affection, that is, the desire for her body and its glorification. She glows with the wine of holy love which she has drunk; but she is not yet all on fire, for she has tempered the potency of that wine with milk. The unmingled wine would enrapture the soul and make her wholly unconscious of self; but here is no such transport for she is still desirous of her body. When that desire is appeased, when the one lack is supplied, what should hinder her then from yielding herself utterly to God, losing her own likeness and being made like unto Him? At last she attains to that chalice of the heavenly wisdom, of which it is written, ‘My cup shall be full.’ Now indeed she is refreshed with the abundance of the house of God, where all selfish, carking care is done away, and where, for ever safe, she drinks the fruit of the vine, new and pure, with Christ in the Kingdom of His Father (Matt. 26.29).
Thank you Bernard of Clairveaux
Thank you Jesus
(Taken from Christian Classics Ethereal Library)